Melodic Heart Notes ~

Note

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Sun, 25 Jun 2006 17:32:59 GMT

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Love

♦Ruled by a Garden of Stars ~

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Wed, 14 Jun 2006 19:50:10 GMT

What he interpreted as apathy was really helplessness. He simply could not read her; he was her innocent, incorrect, ignorant darling.
He continued: studding the crown of his colourless fantasies with images of Infanta. His woman looked down,~ her heart thundering away inside a bubble that her lightening had no power to burst.
She drempt of faeries casting a spell upon Hideousness : ~ ~ ~
smashing it into fragments, transpiring it into the air, and capturing it in bottles~
They caught them, cured them, and renamed them: Destiny, Hope, Faith}

^{~ Thierry Mugler ~}

R.I.P

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Fri, 09 Jun 2006 12:29:44 GMT

Searching with the innocence of uncertainty

Closer
& close enough to inhale his breath :
Gifts borrowed from the eternal summer of his heart,
bringing mine~ breezes pure from a World whose day needs no sun to lighten it.

_{Bring me to my knees if it's ok to plead}

i. S T R A T U S

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Tue, 06 Jun 2006 23:35:04 GMT

Teasing Bliss. Love carried by the smouldering light of a flickering Heaven, a fluttering Ministry.

♥ ~ { His Brooding Beauty } ~ Living is easy with eyes closed
♠ ~ { Beggar with a Beastly tongue } ~ That is capital; but now you must dance for me

. . . bear me away on your snowy wings ~ to my immortal home . . .

Death of an Angel | Titania

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Fri, 26 May 2006 13:05:51 GMT

"Then she paused. A rose shook in her blood, and shadowed her cheeks. Quick breath parted the petals of her lips. They trembled. Some southern wind of passion swept over her, and stirred the dainty folds of her dress. . . The girl laughed again. The joy of a caged bird was in her voice. Her eyes caught the melody, and echoed it in radiance; then closed for a moment, as though to hide their secret.

'He wants to enslave you.'
'I shudder at the thought of being free.'"

~ The Picture of Dorian Gray

With silken strings the cover of Love's eye

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Thu, 18 May 2006 13:07:34 GMT

Well could I wish it would be ever day,

If, when night comes, you bid me go away.

^girl

♥ ♥

no sleep, no sleep}~ I miss that night, day, week....~ to forget time,
to know only Love.
Everything slow, warm, intoxicated.

spirit-sweetening energy

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Tue, 16 May 2006 12:13:58 GMT

~1st lucid dream}~ _{protected from nightmares when you realize your spirit is awake}
~silky bullets of deep red lipstick}~ _{lipgloss - girl; lipstick - woman}
~climaxing through power of thought alone}~ _{female wet-dreams}
~light & innocent; passion-scented flowers}~ _{silent energy}
~lonesome weeks filled: her secret nymphomanic days}~ _{_psyche}_{_♥}

♪

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Sat, 13 May 2006 14:47:20 GMT

little two-way mirror

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Mon, 08 May 2006 16:27:22 GMT

"I feel beautiful because You are the beautiful half of me" ~

♥

♪

"I wanna see the sunshine after the rain,
I wanna see bluebirds flying over the mountains again.

With the silver linings shining at the rainbows end". ~

♪

{ Diary : Entwining Ivy I }~

Dreams & their wings.

~

.

♥

.

spherical pearl; photosynthesis. her own

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Fri, 05 May 2006 21:34:34 GMT

_~Vogue~

Today was a beautiful day to feel a little braver.
To try on adult-world strength no longer makes me feel like a little girl trying on her mothers clothes.
I am teaching my voice to carry a clearer elegance; & communicating lightly with my hands instead of having them folded across my front~ as though I'm trying to hold myself together & would fall apart the moment I relaxed them.

My room is graced with flowers that I gave myself ~
they remind me that I outshone my expectations of what I thought I was capable of. Even if I fail next time, I'll be reminded that I have reached, touched; That I have completed the sphere of strength with this action makes me taste something inside that was always lacking before; I won't let it go.
♥

a path to Destiny lit with ~ ~ ~

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Mon, 01 May 2006 01:06:24 GMT

I went to Southend Central to meet dear malefact.

.
{a tiny little tiny fae-girl who cried so much!;
her wideopen innocent vision softly took in malefact as she passed by him~
her watery seaside eyes were such a delicate blue :
as though she had cried away all of the colour in her eyes,
and made them the very colour of tears themselves.

.
{sneaking delicious food into the cinema~
enjoying a sweet film; with the glimmering comfort of knowing I have a friend beside me

.
{getting to an old/new place by myself;
thrilled at seeing sand & sea in passing on the train.
a boy stopped me in the street & asked me for my phone number[!]

.
{being treated with more kindness than I deserve
& wishing to treat with more than I was able to.

[ music up loud & dancing without caring who sees ]

It's usually rare for me to find pleasure in exhaustion, but the way my legs ache is a constant reminder of how I have felt today.

Dreaming & Music~ A Virginity

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Mon, 24 Apr 2006 17:52:49 GMT

"Listen to his voice, isn't it lovely?", she smiles innocently,~ sweetly unaware that by the time these words had left her lips, it had slipped onto a soulful, instrumental track in which the beauty of his voice wasn't present.
She holds an earphone to her mothers' brunette head.

Mother presses the melody against her ear and closes her eyes, enjoying the sensation of her heart being slowly taken apart by what she hears.~ "Can I please borrow this?" She flicks her eyes up to her daughter. "I want to dream to this tonight."

"...Of course," Her daughter hesitantly replied - trying to render herself content in thinking & re-thinking so as to erode away a point of envy - ~ ~ her mothers' dreams unfolding with kaleidoscopic symmetry in beauty equal to that of his voice. Oh sleeping~ That 'slice of death' that sets hearts & imaginations wild, free... sets you free : untold, untaught things; untamed...

[ Awaken ]

'while the youthful hue~ sits on thy skin like morning dew'

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Fri, 21 Apr 2006 17:56:52 GMT

_{There once was a girl who lived only on flowers ~
she never ate or drank anything else.
Her parents thought she was a witch;
they abandoned her when she was 5 years old.

~
A boy called Jack fell in love with Jasmine at first sight.
On the eve of her 17th birthday, he searched the land to find the prettiest things to give her.
When Jasmine awoke on her birthday, all around her~
there were hundrends of cinderella-coaches full of the freshest, most Beautiful flowers.

She kissed his rosy lips, & through weight of emotion~ Jack fell into her arms.
Jasmine consumed him with insatiable appetite,
leaving him not a mortal breath in which to confess his love for her;..}

swim into blue

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Thu, 20 Apr 2006 00:52:21 GMT

Dive, gypsy Ophelia.~♥

dual aphrodite; rain

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Sat, 15 Apr 2006 02:46:43 GMT

_~vogue~

Pure Silence, decorated with the soft, sweeping songs of birds.
They flutter & fly, they come & go;
we watch them go by.
I'm tucked safely beneath your chin:
secretly cherishing the aura of warmth radiating from your body.
[I barely want to move with you like this]

I Love feeling so in Love that I no longer feel I belong to myself

The Sunshine is dancing through my tears
{you kiss my joy better: you elevate me further}
- they tenderly caress down your face ~ ~ ~
This is Summer rain.

_{And don't give in until the essence of your spirit is plentiful enough to drown me a hundred times over~}

_{& when you leave me,}
_{you'll do so with massive rainbows}
_{arching their colours behind you}
_{like rollercoasters in the sky.}

still lifes

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Sun, 09 Apr 2006 13:50:08 GMT

~ worry

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Fri, 07 Apr 2006 17:09:39 GMT

~~I'm Yours

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Wed, 05 Apr 2006 12:05:23 GMT

_{Spring: The sound of his melody loud to resound through Everything,~
everything will be ok.}
_{{There's arguing & a constant depression of negativity in this house~}
_{my dad is made redundant,}
_{my mum is 'employing' him now;}
_{making fun (she calls this mere 'joking'. It's grating, whatever it is), of his inability to make furnature to sell.
Already he does so much for us worthy of appreciation.~ The last he deserves is to be nagged at.}}
_{Complaining is always 'joking'}
_{Nagging is always 'joking'}
_{I'm growing apart from my family emotionally, but I want to put my all into bringing money into this house.}_{I feel a family in You.~ You dear Angels I met on Saturday.
Thank you for such memories.}_{_{I can't wait to get off the ground.
I know that Everything will be ok.
I Love You.}}

_{_*_{~ 'And now you're found,}
_{get off the ground,}
_{we have a sky in which to play.' ~ *
~malefact}_{~Josephine Wall~}}

freefall ~ Entwining Ivy V

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Thu, 30 Mar 2006 07:54:02 GMT

I cried on my birthday.~
Burning. I did not think it was possible to fall even more in Love. {oh god I don't think I can let him go... oh god what if I can't?}
I have never felt pain this ravishingly Beautiful before.~ my heart is tearing layers away like wrapping paper ~~ - and expands and expands and expands and I feel I could go on forever.
I thought I knew Love - I didn't think there were boundaries before this, but yesterday I experienced my Heart soar through whatever boundary there must have been - & sink deeper. At this moment, I feel there aren't any more~ {I'll be wrong. and how I adore feeling that. I'll never stop learning. This is Eternal}
Yesterday was one of the happiest days of my life.
In my bed sleeps the Angel I have been dreaming of every night all of the year since I met him.
Embracing. {'Bliss, Bliss & Heaven - gorgeousness & gorgeousity made flesh.'}~ Cupids Arrow pierced itself through my heart~ linking it with his. We melted together in a Heaven-bound cloud of sumptuous Beauty.
To feel him leave my arms~... ...let my heart be torn down the center it was struck through. {oh god I don't think I can let him go... oh god what if I can't?}
I cried on my birthday.~ like a child, like a lover.

Mars 29

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Wed, 29 Mar 2006 06:10:51 GMT

I am 19 today.

I always cry on my birthday, how bizarre.
I won't do this today.
{I don't feel 19, at all!!~ just - awkward, strange}. I don't think I am 19.~ I wish I did feel it.
Regardless of the above trash- I'll act 19 this year.

:)

_{I love you.}

~no.1 - For January&

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Mon, 27 Mar 2006 20:47:57 GMT

For January;&♥
I've felt Ugly
I've felt Beautiful ~
I have lost my sense of Self.
I have learnt that I do not mind.

~{Even the smallest butterfly can flutter her wings with such effect- that she can change something on the other side of the world}~

{thankful}.
I hate my eyes, but here anyway --

To~

Spring in her step; Summer in her eyes

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Thu, 23 Mar 2006 21:15:46 GMT

This year I want to learn how to drive; I want to go to the countryside and be just like Heather.
I dyed my hair blond today~

~

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Mon, 20 Mar 2006 22:52:16 GMT

From pookatimes:

1. What does your LJ name mean?
...I hope it's self-explanatory; I'm shy about it.

2. What does your LJ head line mean?
A description of what I hope my LJ conveys / I think it sounds pretty.

3. Elaborate on your default photo:
My favourite painting by Josephine Wall. I Love Rainbows, and Josephine is mistress of those. :)

4. What's your current relationship status?
In a long-term relationship.

5. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Jeans, pink t-shirt, trainers, socks, knickers, make-up... and a towel on my head, hah, (I've just had a shower).

6. What is your current problem?
Job-hunting.

7. What do you love most?
Love. Keith. Friends. All equally.

8. What makes you most happy?
Being around friends.

9. Are you musically talented?
No. I picked up some basic stuff on piano & guitar, but I'm not musically talented.

10. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would it be?
I'd have not been so bossy when I was younger.

12. Ever have a near death experience?
I almost drowned in the swimming pool at Belhus park. Saved by a man called James who years later~ taught me how to swim.

13. Name an obvious quality you have?
Pah, I'm not to say that.

14. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
The Libertines - What a Waster.

15. Who will copy and paste this first?
I have no idea.

16. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
Elle Macpherson

17. Have you ever vandalized someone's private property?
No.

18. Have you ever been in a fight?
Many a girly cat-fight at Primary School, but never anything serious at all.

20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Expression, posture.

21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Whatever bristolian_kam's having!~ Being as the only times I go there are when he's with me; I like having the same as him, and everything at Starbucks is scrummyful anyways.

22. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
Yes; I think most everybody does this at one point to a some degree.

23. Say something totally random about yourself:
I LIKE SQUISHING BUBBLE WRAP.

24. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Someone once said I look like a mix of Claire Danes and Julia Styles.

26. Did you have braces?
Non.

27. Are you comfortable with your height?
Not really, I feel like a little creature that people walk on easily! If I were taller I'd feel more like a lady.

28. What is the most romantic thing someone has ever done for you?
A boy in High School put a red rose and a poem in my desk one morning, so that I'd open it in front of the whole class. I couldn't get away from him and he followed me into the girls toilets while declaring how he loves me.
My Prince has done & said so many things that I consider romantic, t'would be impossible to name just one.

29. Do you speak any other languages?
A little French, but not much.

31. Have you ever been to a tanning salon?
No, but I'm considering it~ when I go blonde for the summer, would probably look better with a bit of a tan.

32. What kind of magazines do you read?
I buy 'GLAMOUR' for the photography & beauty pages~ all gorgeously done.

33. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
A funeral limo, but not one of those long, sleek, sexy things.

34. Has anyone you were really close with passed away?
Lily was quite close.

35. Do you ever watch MTV?
I take a glimpse at it when Danny has it on - and cringe. Not keen.

36. What's something that really annoys you?
I'm not easily annoyed; I annoy myself most of the time.

37. Do you give random hugs and kisses?
I don't think so, I don't in real life, though I suppose I do online sometimes.

38. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?
I've had a lot of nights without any sleep at all.

39. Have you ever been rushed into the emergency room?
Non.

~ Before I Close; Before I Open; | between sleep&.lovelayers

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Sun, 12 Mar 2006 01:53:14 GMT

~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~

_{~'what is it that you look to me for?'. Echoes all around as ghostly feminine whispers.
Back to bed, sweetheart- back to bed.}

_{Love is Eternal;
Heaven is Eternal ~
because one is made from the other.
A part of each other like You & I~}

~487

thelittlestlamb@msn.com — Thu, 09 Mar 2006 22:07:00 GMT

   ♥